Paralyzed

So for my first post, I'm going to recount a sleep paralysis experience I had just the other night. This is the third of three sleep paralysis episodes that I have ever had in my life, it is also one of the best.

I laid down to take a forty minute nap before going to my next class. I had had about 6 hours of sleep the night before, so it was already prime conditions. I was very tired and nearly fell asleep as soon as my eyes closed. I awoke into an extremely vivid dream. I had just walked out of the back doors of my old high school, and I continued to walk forward across the parking lot and into the field towards my house. This is a walk that I made many times in high school, as I lived so close you could see my house from the school. While walking across the field, I noticed a grand intensity in the colors around me, I could even feel the hot sun on my neck. It was at that moment of realization, that I became aware that I was dreaming. I told myself to open my eyes and look around, as soon as I opened my eyes, sleep paralysis attacked my body like lightning. I recall a dark black floating object directly above my head, and another smaller black object floating above me to the left. Having experienced paralysis before, I knew exactly what it was, which allowed myself to think straight and decide what to do next. I have read a lot about astral projection and so I decided that was my next step. I closed my eyes, and tried to pull my conscience away from my body. At that moment, I literally felt myself rise up from my body, although it was a difficult and slow struggle. I would describe the thing that came out of my body as pure white light shaped similar to a human body, but with no features whatsoever. I got about halfway out of my body, my lower stomach and legs still inside. When I got to that height, it was as if something pushed me back down (possibly the blackness floating above me?). I was forced back into my body and instantly released from the hold of sleep paralysis, I was fully awake.

It's a bummer that I had to wake up, but I am very happy that it happened. I have been trying to achieve the state for nearly two years since my last episode, and this was the closest I have ever come to astral projection. I think there is some meaning behind all this, that in someway I have taken another step forward in my life, but I'm not completely there yet. There seems to be some force that I must conquer before I can understand it all, and it's up to me to find out what that is. Next time this happens to me, I will be ready, I will have absolutely no fear inside of me, and I will look down at my sleeping body from the ceiling and laugh.

Things I did differently before taking the nap: ate a bunch of peanuts, read a chapter of my book.